Perfect insanity

Perfect Insanity

Chapter 6

  ~~Deidara's P.O.V.~~

A few months have past, six to be exact. The hospital is only worse then it was before, the asylum has become overpopulated. This being said food that had been rationed off have become smaller and smaller in meal size, making patients, including myself, even more underweight.  Its gone as far as patients dying from the lack of food but I'm not certain, then again sometimes the others know what their talking about.

Though the place is overcrowded, cleanliness has faltered as well, and some patients have picked up sickness like typhus and other dirty environmental diseases. I know for certain that they're not getting rid of bodies in a proper way, I've heard from Sasori that they are just dumping bodies somewhere underneath the asylum or something like that.

I looked around my room and noticed it was more clean then others because of Sasori's aid, however he is a orderly and he cant always be in here cleaning and sneaking me food, to prevent my death. His help is great, yet I don't know if I want to live anymore, the reason for suicidal like feelings is seeing people everyday dying from disease or malnourishment. My thoughts of suicide settled, and I was now determined to kill myself.

~~Sasori's P.O.V.~~

I had snuck food out for Deidara, I didn't want him to end up like the other patients, where their bodies were sent down a shaft into a hole in the ground.  The thought for the patients that have died and were dumped makes me seem inhumane since my job is to take part in that.

I finally found myself at Deidara's door, I opened it seeing Deidara staring out the window. This had became a normal action for him, when he seemed the most sane. He turned to me and we greeted each other. He, of course, ate the food I had brought him though I could tell he had another thought in mind.

He finished the food yet had a blank face, no sign of gratitude anywhere. I could tell he had wanted to tell me something, but he wouldn't talk. He looked at me, yet said nothing. Finally he spoke, "Sasori give me an overdose," shocked, I tried to get the thought out of my head. He wants to die, the voices in his head had finally gotten to him.

I replied " what? No, why would you want to die in the first place?"

He blankly answered "either way I'm gonna die in this god forsaken, ran down, piece of shit might as well die instead of suffer." I knew what he said was true, at this rate he would die from malnutrition, and if he survived, sickness was sure to follow.

His face grew impatient, yet I couldn't do it. He must've snapped again, and he started walking towards me, yelling. He, threw a fist at me, though he missed. I took this opportunity to get close, took out a needle and injected the sleeping treatment in his thigh. I only used this because I didn't want to see another ECT.

~~Deidara's P.O.V.~~

He had stuck me, and as soon as that needle went into my thigh I grew drowsy. Sasori stared at me as I stumbled around trying to stay awake. I took one last look at him before the medicine took full effect, he had a pained look. Had he done it? Has he done what I asked him for?  Everything went blank from then and I had fallen asleep.